The time has come,
for closing books and long last looks must end,
and as I leave,
I know that I am leaving my best friend.
A friend who taught me right from wrong,
and weak from strong,
that's a lot to learn,
What can I give you in return?
This leg of our journey has come to an end. My son is home, and I can now see the good that has come from it. Recently, I heard the above song for the first time in many years. It was the theme song to an old movie favorite, "To Sir With Love".
As I try to end the documenting of this journey, I realize that the song speaks volumes in the fact that it has been like a close friend. I have many posts for all to see that tell my story and many more that were written for only my benefit. It has helped me to sort out feelings and figure out paths that need to be taken.
So what has all of this accomplished? My story started out with the name of "Finding Me Again". What have I learned over the years?
I often remember my then 10 year old niece going to visit her beloved cousin for the first time. We were nervous and on the way to the facility we gave her a lot of direction. As we pull up and see a few inmates playing basket ball outside, her comment was "They get recess!!!" In her mind that made everything ok. In my mind, I realized I needed to laugh and appreciate the small moments that make big memories.
I learned that I was just like everyone else who found themselves in the same situation as I. This allowed me to open myself to friendships that my previous snobbish self would have over looked.
I am more surprised than anyone that my journey turned into one of strong faith. It was what I needed to get through it. I knew that as a family we hit rock bottom. I discovered that the rock we hit was the Lord waiting to lift us up.
Looking through this entire blog I realize that the lessons learned were more numerous than I have been recently remembering. So, did I accomplish what I set out to do? Did I find me again?
The answer would be yes, probably, or perhaps that in the process I found a better me.
Thank you to all who stood by my side during this journey.
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